Missing Writing

We all need a break now and then. For some of us, we have so much going on that we tend to get caught up in something and other things just sort of fall by the wayside. Well, as you can tell, that has been happening to me a lot lately. Unfortunately, the thing that suffered is my writing.

I basically had given up on it for far too long. As most any writer can tell you, when a writer does not write, weird things begin to happen. For me, my mood is the first thing to go. I get stressed much easier than when I write. From there, it just goes downhill fast.

I also have this overall feeling that something is missing. In truth, it is! When I write I am surrounded by the characters that need to get their story told. After a while of dealing with my life and trying to not write, I have come to the conclusion that the television “Ghost Whisperer” had to be written by a writer that at some point in their career has tried to not write. Just like those ghosts will just not leave that poor woman alone, neither will the characters that want to share their stories.

The first way they manifest is in brief glimpses into someone’s life and the “What if” questions begin. Sometimes it is even as simple as well, if I do this, then what will happen or if I do that, will this happen. Sometimes it is a case of seeing a family shopping or out to eat and an entire world develops around them.

When I put off writing for long enough, the dreams begin to get seriously crazy. The dream may start off innocent enough, but then turn into a major motion picture going on in my head complete with enough twists and turns to keep a soap opera a hit with viewers for at least a month or so.

After the dreams comes the depression. The feeling that nothing I do could ever be good enough. I simply want to hide out in my room for eternity. I do not want to talk to anyone or go anywhere. I eat simply because I am so nervous that I can not stop. I no longer feel hunger. If I can keep myself occupied, I do not realize that I have not eaten until the sickness sets in.

Sounds a bit dramatic huh? Well, that’s my life. I should be the drama queen! The trick is in not letting it get out of hand. Stopping it before it gets to the depression stage or even the crazy dream stage. The only way of doing that is to write! So, yeah, you guessed it. I’m slipping into the edge of the depression stage so I’m clawing my way back into writing. I hope you can come along with me and enjoy the ride. Hopefully, it will not be too bumpy. Buckle up anyway. You know how I love to drive fast!